[April 6] -- [song] Ludacris - Growing Pains
[action] homework
[what im feelin] confused
[Thoughts]hmmz... i had a nice dream last nite.. and noo it wasnt a dirty one .. u perv... lolz.. iono i wish i didnt have it tho... setting: some room like a meeting room.. i was sitting on one side and on the other side was this girl.. the one that ive liked fo awhile.. n everytime i look at her.. she smiles.. n i wake up to realize it was jus a dream... o wellz. thas my entry for todai.. ive got hw.


[April 3] -- [song] Usher -- Confessions
[action] bout to sleep
[what im feelin] who knoz
[Thoughts]well todai went ta aayat meetin at 2.. den we went ta da health space thing. then ta asiaplaza where we passed aayat flyers out.. den me,trang,nan,rosah,kerri(dont kno tha spelling) went ta gabrielle's brothers.. well rite b4 we went ta visit chanary at her work.. it was koo.. lolz ppl thought i was bored at shoppin n dat was onli cuz noone seemed ta want me by them lolz.. o wellz i went round dat store a couple times.. got me time to think.. im alwayz doin shiet dat i forget to tink at times.. and i realized why i dont tink.. it gets ta me. i realli cant wait till break.. maybe i can sort thru mah shiet.. im so sick of holdin some of dis stuff in.. watevaz.. ive been thinkin bout things and i realize i fall short of so many thingz.. maybe i should start focusin on tha things i do well fo once.. maybe its dat i dont eva say damn i did good... wateva..

[March 27] -- [song] Kanye West -- All Falls Down
[action] homework
[what im feelin] unshure
[Thoughts]
it all falls down. it seems like all da walls ppl built are slowly falling down..even mine seems to have disintegrated.. and i tried to build it back up wit new material.. but its not holdin.. i dont kno nemore.. =)

[March 27] -- [song] Jessica Simpson - Forbidden Fruit
[action] Reinvention
[what im feelin] jollier
[Thoughts]still did nottin todai.. i did some tinkin and i tink im tryin ta turn a new leaf.. im gonna "reinvent mahslef" not realli.. but mo like ima have a betta attitude on life.. im sick of feelin sorri fo mahself and i kno noone wants ta feel sorri fo me eitha.. i was tinkin bout thingz and its like if u give n give and u dont seem to get netin in return.. shouldnt u stop givin.. lolz i was too slo r=to realize that. so thas my revelation of the day. i realli dont kno where it came from.. i tink i was readin mah french shiet and in a previous book we had ta read it was talkin bout how if ur so worried bout sometin.. its prob gonna happen ta ya.. like say if im so worried bout gettin a pimple. i will get it jus fo spite.. get tha picture? well thas it.. keep up da notes.. i like dem =).


[March 27] -- [song] Kanye West -- All Falls Down
[action] Thinkin
[what im feelin] Like im bout to break down
[Thoughts]did shiet all weekend.. ive been feelin realli bad lately.. im jus like morally drained once again.. i dont kno nemore.. i tink maybe i should become busy again so i dont have to tinnk bout thingz..btw see dat link rite der.. leave me a note or sumtinz bout wat i wrote.


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